Few Things Left Unsaid (32 page)

“You are not happy with me I know. I can’t make letters for you, I can’t sing a song for you. I am simple. I can’t give you surprises” Amit said one day.

“Why do you compare yourself with Aadi? I really don’t understand why you have to bring him  between us? Have I ever complained about these things? Please Amit stop comparing yourself with him.”

The arguments continued. It was not easy to adjust with him. As days passed he started showing his true colors. He started avoiding me. He started shouting at me.

“Don’t you understand, you idiot. I am busy. I can’t meet you know. So stop bothering me. I will call you when I am free.” Amit used to say.

“What the hell. Aadi never used to do this. He always used to talk to me. He never gave me such reasons except for the last few days. We have hardly been together for 2 months and you are behaving so rudely. Aadi was correct.” I said.

“Now you are comparing me to him. If you still love him you can go back to him. Get lost” he slammed the phone down.

We started fighting daily. He never understood me the way you used to. Whenever he wanted me on his bed he used to behave sweetly. I used to ignore him at that time.

One day your  mom called me.

“ Riya is everything fine? Whenever I talk to Aadi about you he avoids the topic. Any problem?”

I did not tell her what had happened between us. I told her that we both had decided to concentrate on studies first and then think of all these things. She accepted the reason and wished me luck for my future. She never called me after that Maybe she understood that we both needed time to decide what we wanted.

Each day it was getting more and more difficult for me to be with Amit and live without you. I tried to forget each and every thing between us but it never happened. Many times instead of taking Amit’s name I used to call him Aadi. It happened several times. We fought on this also. Whenever we used to fight he never cared to call me. He only cared just to be physical with me. I finally decided to tell him that I couldn’t adjust with him.

“Amit, I cant forget Aadi. I love him. I still love him a lot. I am not going back to him. I have to pay for whatever I did to him. Maybe he will never forgive me, but I can’t stop loving him. You are a  false person from head to toe. You never loved me. Aadi was right. You can never love anyone. I lost my friend Neha because of you and my love too. Anyways bye forever. I won’t call you again.”

“Are you mad? You left Aditya because of me. And now you are leaving me because of Aditya. Are you so desperate to have both guys with you on bed?”

“Are you drunk? How could you speak like this to me. You are cheap. Aadi was perfect. He always told me that Neha had the cheapest boyfriend in town. He was right. Get lost. I don’t need you.”

“ Bloody bitch. Even I don’t need you. I took the feel of you as much as I can. I know you won’t allow me to do anything more. You remembered Aditya whenever I tried to touch you. Get lost. Fuck off.” he kept the phone down.

I really missed you that day. I wanted to call you. But I controlled myself. I still remembered your message which said forget me and forget my name. I could not call you after all that I did to you. I was guilty. I was all alone. No friends and no love.

Problems were not over yet. They kept on coming one after the other. My dad’s business collapsed. We had to sell our car. We had to sell our flat where we used to live. We did not want to sell the other flat. We kept it as it is. But it would have been too hectic for me and my brother if we shifted there. We rented a flat in Aerol in the same building. Still God had to test me more. Both the shops which my dad owned were shut down. Suddenly financial problems arose. I could not take admission in 3rd year. I had to look for a job. I had no option left than to drop a year. I searched for a job and got it in a call center in Malad. I had day shift there. I became the only person to earn in my family. Last year I saw too much of the seaming side of life. I could not think of coming back to you again. I had so many responsibilities on me. My salary was 12000 rupees. Each day killed me from inside. My schedule became hectic. Suddenly I got a message from you.

I replied to you rudely. The reason was but obvious. I did not wanted to be in a relationship again. I was frustrated with my job. Moreover I was really guilty to come back to you. If you  had behaved the same way as you did in the last few days of our relationship it would have increased my problems. I did not see any change in you when I met you on my birthday. I was going to the office. I saw that you had realised my importance but still I was not sure about your behaviour. I already was mentally disturbed. Going through the worst phase of my life. I decided to change my number to solve this problem. I changed my number so that you could not contact me. I got busy in my routine work.

 I had a client Mr Suresh. He needed some urgent information by the end of the day. I did his work and messaged him. But you got that message. I checked both the numbers.There was a difference of just one digit. His number ended with 9061 and your number ended with 9060. I did not knew that this was your number. Even you had changed your number.Then when you replied you were Aditya from Euro college I started chatting with you and kept in touch with you. And you as usual started flirting with me. In my call centre it was compulsory to change the name in the calling department. I had given my name as Harsha. I startd talking to you using the same name. As I started talking to you I realised you still love me. That brought a smile to my face. I still didn’t reveal my identity. I wanted to see to which limit you could go with Harsha. But you told me, I mean Harsha that Riya will always be your life. I felt you had changed. And now I am with you.

“I am sorry I took you in the wrong sense. I could not see your love at that time. I am sorry for all the pain I caused you. I am sorry for the last one year when I was away from you. Can we be together again?” she had fear in her eyes.

“ Yes jaan. I am always yours. I can’t forget the pain that you caused me. I can’t forget the days when I needed you the most but still I was alone. I can’t forget the time when I fought with the world alone. But I don’t think much about these things. When I close my eyes all that I can see is your smiling face with a seductive look in your eyes. All I can remember is all the sweet moments that we shared. This time I won’t ignore you. I am sorry for whatever I did. I should have given you time.”

I slept on her lap. I felt like I could die happily then. I missed all these small things. I looked at her eyes and tears came. She kissed my tears and played with my hair and cheeks.  We had pani puri and paavbhaaji. The day was complete.It was 5pm. We met. We kissed. We had a ride. I slept on her lap. We cried. We laughed. We ate. Everything that we used to do earlier, was again happening. My day was complete. Oh no! not yet. How could I forget it.One thing is missing.

“Jaan , there is no one at home. Mom and dad have gone to watch a movie. They will have their dinner and then come back. We can move to my house. What say?” I said.

She agreed. I was missing this. Now the day will be completed. We reached home.We went to my bedroom. I closed the door….

We kissed. We hugged. We were lying naked on the bed. To make up after a big fight and a big break up really feels good. It brought charm on our faces. I kissed her back. I remembered what Amit had said. The black spot on her back was too hot. While kissing her back I observed carefully.
There was no black spot on her back.
This brought a big smile on my face. It meant He never touched her back,  he was just fooling me. This made me more wild. I loved my Riya. I always said, My Riya will never be wrong. She is perfect.  I grabbed her and made up with her… as we lay down….she asked me

“Did you miss this?”

“Yes a lot. I always told you. You are perfect. Your body is a wonderland. Love you a lot…”

“This time I am loving you the way you used to. And you are loving me the way I used to. I won’t leave you ever now. I am all yours. I realised what life is without you…love you too.”

Being in each others arms we were staring at each other…I could feel her eyes conveying the same thing to me that my eyes did at that moment….

……………AND I CANT STOP LOVING YOU………….

“ Jaan, tell me the full name of Mr SURESH. We should thank him. If it had not been for him we would not have met again. What a co incidence it was. I thought it was only possible in Bollywood films. I still could not believe it happened with us in real life and not reel life.” I said

“I don’t remember his full name, but let me check on my mobile. I have his details. Got it. His name is Mr SURESH BANARJEE. SALES MANAGER.”

“What? Are you sure? Can you repeat the name. Check it once again.”

I was shocked to hear Banarjee’s name.

“Yes dear. His name is MR BANARJEE. SALES MANAGER.” She confirmed.

I could not believe this…… this was the second co incidence.

He said….  Love is always right , but a girl can be wrong.

I wanted to tell him that my love is also right and my girl is also right…..

I wanted to tell him that my Riya is right. I wanted to tell him,she loves me. I wanted to tell him,she cares for me. But
Few things
should be
left unsaid…

REALLY SOME LOVE STORIES CANNOT BE PREDICTED…..

Love stories never end…… this love story has not ended yet…

                     
Epilogue

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e loved, we fought , we broke up , we had a surprise element and we were together again. A new morning was on the way. Everyone around me was happy as I got what I had prayed for.  I never thought such a co incidence would ever happen with me. We never met Mr Banarjee after that. He came and brought us together. I still don’t know whether MR Banarjee exists?

Even though we are together today we are still missing Swapnil and Anup. As we both were in a year drop we never went to college. She had her job in Malad and even I was busy. We did not had their number. None of us had. Not even Sameer. We talked to them once when they met us accidentally but the bonding was over. Maybe the fact that they were with Riya when I was alone took them away from me. Sameer was still a darling. He always stood by my side.

Today when I have got my Riya back I have decided to quit cigarette too. I had already stopped drinking beer. After more than a year, today we don’t know where Amit and Neha were. Amit had called once. Not me. He had called Riya. She did not attend his call, instead sent him a message that she was back in relationship with Aditya. He never contacted us after that. Neha was out of the picture. The cold war that started between Riya and Neha didn’t end. I did not interfere in solving it. It hardly affected our lives. She also accepted that she had been in touch with my mom. Not regularly but sometimes. If I had checked with my mom I could have found Riya’s number much earlier than I got to know through a co- incidence. It would have been a different story then. Semesters were approaching still we both didn’t care about studies. I did not want studies to come between us. I never talked about it in front of her. I used to go to pick her and drop her to office daily. We enjoyed rides on bike together. This time we loved each other much more than before. Mom was not aware of it yet. I waited for the right moment to tell. But before the right moment everything was a mess again. I never knew there were so many twists and turns in my way. I never thought I will rewind my life and get stuck in midway….Everything was going smooth and steady then I wonder why the hell I had to apply brakes when not needed. When God gave me everything I prayed for, I had everything I wanted. I rejected everything and chose a wrong path which which was destructive. I had only aim in life”Riya”.She will come back again with such a coincidence was far away than my belief. We both realized our mistakes and decided to stay together forever.