Rocking Esme (The Rocking Series Book 1) (20 page)

Esmeralda

“Esme! Get out here!” Marcy yelled from my front door. I couldn’t move anywhere, I was being sick and was sitting on the bathroom floor. I heard the bathroom door open and Marcy looked down at me on the floor.

“Oh my God, are you ok?” She asked, as she moved towards me.
I nodded, got up off the floor and cleaned my face and brushed my teeth.

“Do you need to pee?” She asked me. I looked at her strangely and said;

“No, what a question Marce.”

“Well, let’s get some liquid in you because you need to do this.” She said as she placed something down on the side of the sink. I looked over and gasped in shock.

“What? No, Marce. I’ve got a virus.”

“I beg to differ… Just humour me.”
I picked up the pregnancy test and said;

“Ok, get out and I will do it.” Marcy squealed and left the bathroom. I opened it up and read the instructions.
A few minutes later I walked out of the bathroom and Marcy was stood right outside the door.

“Well?” She said.

I shook my head. “I can’t look at it. What am I going to do if it’s positive… He won’t talk to me.”

“It
will
all be fine.” Marcy then took the pregnancy test from me. “Do you want me to look?” I nodded my head and she looked at it, she didn’t have any reaction on her face. It seemed like hours before she spoke but it was only a few seconds.

“You’re pregnant… You’re gonna have a baby… I’m gonna be an Auntie.” She cried happily and jumped up and down in excitement. I just stood there, shocked, then I broke down and fell to the floor.
“Esme, are you not happy about this?”

“I can’t have a baby… He won’t talk to me… He hates me… How can I do this alone?”

“You won’t be alone, you have me… Jax will come round.”

“No, you don’t understand… Cindy told him she was pregnant… He doesn’t need me telling him the same thing.”

“The difference is she isn’t pregnant, you are.”

“No… No… I can’t do this.” I was really crying now and Marcy couldn’t get me up off the floor. I laid down and curled myself up and sobbed.

“Esme, please, get up off the floor.” She was starting to sound worried.

“He doesn’t want me… He won’t want this baby.” I said quietly through my tears. Marcy tried to convince me to get up again and I wouldn’t move. The next thing I knew, I was being picked up off the floor and I curled into a strong chest still sobbing.

“Sssh, Es, it’s ok.” Rick said as he sat down on the sofa with me on his lap, rocking me gently. Marcy was sat beside me. “What’s happened?” Rick asked Marcy.

“She’s pregnant.” I heard Marcy tell him.

“What? You need to tell Jax. Shall I call him?” Rick said.

“No!” I yelled as I jumped up and out of his arms.

“Es, he needs to know.” He told me.

“I know that, do you think I don’t know that?” I said as I started pacing.

“When are you going to tell him?” Marce asked.

“He’s not even speaking to me, how am I supposed to tell him?” I shouted.

“What are you going to do?” She asked.

I shrugged my shoulders and said, “I need to let this sink in.”

“Don’t leave it too long to tell him.” Rick said. “You shouldn’t need to go through this without him.”

“I won’t, I promise… I need to lie down. Can I have some time alone, please?”

“Of course, hun, please call me if you need me.”

“I will, thanks.” I hugged them both, locked my front door and went back to bed.

Jackson

I had finally got all of the trouble with Cindy sorted. I was being there for her although we were definitely not getting back together, she was pretty messed up in the head, and despite what she had put me through, I owed it to her to help her straighten out. We had known each other for a long time and did have some good memories.

I was looking forward to seeing Esme at the bar tonight as I was going to ask her if we could talk. I was going to sit her down and explain everything; explain why I hadn’t been around and why I had been avoiding her. I didn’t want to get her involved in what was going on with Cindy, it would have crushed her to know that Cindy thought she was having my baby and it would have torn me apart to have given up Esme and step up and do the right thing by Cindy. I was mad when I found out that Es knew Cindy was cheating, but I saw now that she didn’t want to hurt me and that she had been scared of Cindy and scared of losing her job. I just wanted to put it all behind us.
We hadn’t spoken properly for weeks and although she was probably mad with me, I wanted to make her see how I felt about her. She meant the world to me, and tonight was the night I was going to prove how much, by asking her to come on tour with Flix. I couldn’t bear to be parted from her again.

Esmeralda

A week had passed since I found out I was pregnant, it was my first shift back at The Archer after having two weeks off. I was still feeling sick but now I knew the reason behind it, I was finding it easier to manage. Paul had been amazing about me having time off and was easing me in with a few quiet evening shifts this week.

I was past the point of giving up on Jackson. He plainly refused to talk to me and even walked past me if I saw him. Cindy was often at the bar when Jax was, and every time she saw him ignore me or just walk past me she always had the biggest grin on her face. I really wanted to slap it off. I had decided that enough was enough and it was time to tackle Jackson and try to make him come to his senses. Rick had been quite clear about Jax’s feelings towards me and I was feeling stronger.

“Jax, can we talk?” I asked as he approached the bar. Wait a minute, he came to my side of the bar, that’s got to be progress.

“Sure, when are you finishing?” He asked.

“…Uh…Eleven…” I stuttered, I didn’t expect it to be so easy.

“Ok, great, I will hang out till then. Can I have a jack and Coke, please?”

“Sure.” I said, smiling the biggest smile in weeks. My stomach fluttered and I was hoping this was the start of good things to come.

I passed him his drink and asked how he was, he said ok, but he’d had a lot on his mind recently. He said he would see me later and went and sat down at a table quite far away. I noticed that Rick, Will and Frank went over to join him. He didn’t look too happy. Clearly, he had no idea that Rick had filled me in on the Cindy situation.

It was nearly closing time and the bar was starting to empty out. I noticed that Cindy was still hanging around. Why didn’t she just get the message and leave him alone? Or had he been with her while we haven’t been together? Oh God, just the thought made me feel sick. My mind started to wander if there had been other girls since we’d split up. I’d seen him play enough times to know how many girls were offering it to him on a plate, I hoped I was wrong.

I was out clearing tables, when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I looked around and saw Cindy standing in front of me; she got right up close to my face and said;

“He will NEVER be yours.” I saw out of the corner of my eye that Jax and the rest of Flix were heading towards us, I swallowed my fear and laughed at what she said.

I turned around to grab the tray of empty glasses, when suddenly Cindy shoved me hard from behind and I went flying into the table. A pain shot up through my stomach and I fell to the floor as tears streamed from my eyes. I looked up saw the guys rushing over. I held out my hand and called for Rick. He came running to me.

“Es, you ok?” He asked, panicking.

“No! Need an ambulance, I landed on my stomach.” I cried out. I was finding it hard to breathe, the pain was intense.

“Shit! SOMEONE CALL AN AMBULANCE” I heard him shout.

“Esme.” I heard Jax say behind Rick.

I looked at Rick and shook my head, as if I was saying not to tell him. Rick gave me a look as if to say he was going to. I raised my hand up to my forehead and felt a wetness, I must have banged my head and I was bleeding. I started feeling faint, the voices around me became muffled.

“What’s her problem, I barely touched her. She doesn’t need an ambulance.” Cindy was saying from somewhere in the room.

“Shut it, Cindy.” I heard Rick yell.

“Why? She is just being dramatic. I hardly touched her.” Cindy said again.

“She’s PREGNANT!” Rick yelled at her.

I heard a few gasps, and then I could hear the sirens of the ambulance as I closed my eyes and everything went black.

To Be Continued…….